Today, I’m going to go find a bit of nature and be alone there.
So I did something new. I conducted phone interviews with some models that my company wanted to hire for a trade show in March.
I was nervous, the first call was the most nerve-racking because I had no idea what to say. My co-workers poked fun at me for being so nervous, “shouldn’t it be the other way around?” It was really simple stuff, and they were right…. I’m the one that needs to be impressed, I didn’t have to say a word if I didn’t want to.
Made me think about all the silly stuff that I work myself over. The stories created in my mind, imagining things not real. Mastery over the mind is truly an accomplishment. I like my imagination, I think it helps me creatively. There are many parts of me that I like about myself due to my hyperactive imagination.
Its the gift and the curse.
Today I was very drowsy. I woke up late and I had way too many would’ve should’ve could’ve moments. I felt like I was in a daze. I indulged the night before and had ice cream and drank beers. My body felt it the next day.
I was thinking about not going into work, but I went… and the office was almost empty. Just two others. The day before the room was crammed with people, not enough chairs even. I felt like it was pretty productive in that environment.
One thing I want to think in mind is to be forward looking. Look at where I am going, not where I’ve been.
Realized i’ve been making lots of mistakes lately. At work, my diet, my physical activity. The good thing about mistakes is the opportunity to grow from them. Figure out what I did wrong, and what I can do to change the result.
But most of all, it won’t be what I did before. Maybe this time, I will go at it with a strict process, recording every single number.
Must buy a scale.
What “makes it” and what “breaks it” for you?
A little question mused over dinner tonight. Here is how I answered:
What breaks it for me is selfishness. Selfish people are coming from a place of scarcity, and people like that believe there is not enough in the world. This will be the lens they see all life, including the love they give. If they give, it is an investment and expect returns. They will be more likely to lie, cheat, and steal.
What makes it for me is freedom. People that are able to be themselves. Unafraid of clashing with the status quo. Ever redefining themselves. Explorers, adventurers, visionaries, iconoclasts — All outcomes of a free soul.
It’s not so black and white, but it made me think.
Today was a pretty simple day, and I started off on a sour note. I got my new vacuum cleaner and went to town on my apartment, and its crazy how much dust i removed from the floors. When I emptied the dustbin, I had trouble putting it back in. I think its faulty, and Im planning to return it.
It put me in a bad mood. I was waiting for it, and I couldnt keep it. I think I was hungry too, but I was genuinely upset. Its kind of silly looking back, why was I so upset?
This week, I was too sedentary. Tomorrow is Monday, its a new week!
Anonymous asked: Hi. What is soulmate to you? & do you believe in it?
Actually, i think about this. I think there are soulmates, but not the way it is conventionally thought to be. Soulmates arent lovers, its the people we connect with. I think that soulmates are recurring souls that meet throughout different lives. Its the perpetual interaction between the souls that makes them soulmates. One life you might be my friend, the next my pet, another my lover, whatever it maybe my soulmates will be in my life.
I don’t think we only have one soulmate.
Anonymous asked: What is it about people that draws you in?
Their energy and their vibe. Free people, with open minds and open hearts. People that are quick to laugh, people that are bold. These are the type of people that draw me in.
Ultimately, what the change I hope to be in the world is to bring health awareness to the individual. I would like to see everyone involved in their own well being, and understanding how their body reacts to the world.
I get a lot of slack from some people when I tell them I’m on a diet. I explain to them what I am accomplishing, but sometimes they dont see it. I feel like results are what I need to show, so for now, Im just going to ignore these unfit people trying to tell me what to do and do me.
If I want to change the world, I must really change myself first before anyone can follow along.
It was impending. I would eventually miss a post. I am writing this from day 22.
So yesterday, i had dinner with my friend Stella for her birthday. I havent seen her since November, and it was nice catching up. I told her about my blog, my diet, my new job, my own personal revolution that im undertaking.
She told me she was too. She shared with me about how she struggled with feelings of complacency, and how she combated that. There was a couple things that I really liked about her revolution. 1) She fervently prioritized her health above all else, 2) she saw her goals as more than herself.
She believed that all her actions now will determine an outcome in the future. Important for her was how her decisions now would affect her future child.
I thought this was wonderful because i think this is an important step to feeling fulfilled from accomplishments. I believe success doesnt bring happiness. Happiness comes from being in contribution, to positively affecting more than just ones self.
I think ive been missing my marks because i havent been clear as to what ultimately all my actions will lead to. To be curt, my focus is unclear.
By the end of today, i will determine what exactly are my motivations for my goals.
I’ve been missing at the gym. Even people at the gym notice that I havent been going. I only went once this week. This week has been pretty busy for me though. Lots of new happenings at work, and overall its been good business.
I don’t want to say that I’m missing the gym because of work. I should be able to live a full life, accomplishing all that I want. I think it does come down to my time management skills.
Otherwise, I have been keeping up with most my daily goals. I wake up and do my stretches and exercises. I’ve been keeping all my receipts. I sporadically keep a to-do list, so I could work on that. My diet is coming along, though I feel as if its not working. Its only been 10 days, so maybe in another two weeks.
So i decided to extend my diet. I’ve gotten more accustomed to it and I dont think I’ll have a problem finding food to eat anymore. I plan to extend the diet for at least one more day, likely more.
I am also going to start having to wear suits to work everyday, or most days, because looking professional is apparently very necessary in my line of work.
Had a steak dinner tonight with Anna. Prime & Beyond is an USDA prime grade steakhouse opened by Koreans near St. Marks. I thought it was wonderful, there business plan at least. The food… I realized that I am not a big fan of most steakhouses.
Anyway, I think i found out what it is that gives some the extra boost or second wind that sets them apart. Its how people interpret information. Something that I read today was a conversation about nutrition and diet, and how one of them was beginning to appreciate hunger rather than hate it. It wasn’t something i would have ever thought of as a reaction to hunger. Things happen, and our body reacts to it. Then our minds reacts to our body, but the thing is… its really up to you how your mind reacts.
Its day 9 of my 10 day recalibration. I am so excited to be able to eat carbs. THE END.
I listen to joe rogan podcasts. The guy inspires me, and I love his authenticity. If anyone wanted to hate on him, it would be easy. He has his flaws, but he is very real. He embraces his own humanity, and thats one thing I really admire about him.
One thing they talked about was time and time wasting. It takes the same amount of time to hate or love, the same amount of time to do something or sit there and think about it.
I really connected to that today. Im pretty happy with my accomplishments. What fueled me today was a simple thought: “Can I take the next step?”
If yes, go. If no, rest. Often, i can do it. I just don’t feel like it. Doesn’t matter if its good for me, sometimes I just don’t want to do shit.
The insight i took away from this past weekend’s snowboarding trip is that good things can happen from doing things I don’t want to do. Believe in yourself, but never treat every thought as if it was gold.
This weekend was total debauchery, and I had so much fun being there. However, I do acknowledge that I didn’t do some of things I committed to during this weekend. This is a breakdown between my goals and reality, and I must recognize that.
After today, a phrase keeps running through my head: NO DAYS OFF.
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